mickeys

So here I am, sitting in mcdonalds waiting another hour or so to start work.
I had an interesting morning.
First this morning on the roundabout a guy on a motorcycle assumed I was turning when I was heading around. I immediately breaker when i saw his bike get jammed beneath my car and he went sideways and flew off his bike. Luckily he was okay just a bit scratched up and the bike was fine as well. Also since it was so early there hardly was traffic, but still it was not a fun experience for me. If a cop would have shown up I'm not sure what I would have done. I'm lucky things were ok. If he had broken a leg what would I have done? Well take him to the hospital, duh, but do I pay him? I suppose so...although I'm pretty sure he just got up and left because he knew it was his fault. Por estar aventandose.
I am tired...these past few weeks have felt heavy. I thought being in tj meant a more relaxed form of living. I suppose I shouldn't complain. At least I am getting hours. I am starting to get tired of this routine and the people I work with. I really need to evaluate what I want and how I will get where I want to be. Even though I don't know what that is yet. I just need something more than this.

8.23.15

Dear John,

I have so many things I want to say but I will try to keep it simple. Thank you.

Thank you for all the wonderful memories. Thank you for letting me follow you around without my shirt on because you also did not have it on and sit with you in your yellow bean bag chair. Thank you for teaching me how to make jame and lending me your stuffed green bell pepper recipe.

You have been a wonderful grandfather and godparent to me. You have shown me so many beautiful things.

I always knew that you cared. While I was in Okinawa, when I came home to visit we talked about the weather over there and when you went to Japan.

I know you are in peace now, and eventually so will I. I'm just sorry I couldn't say goodbye. I hope to one day see you again and make up for that. Until then, I have written you this letter letting you know how much I will miss you, how much I cared for you, and how you will always have a place in my thoughts and heart.

I love you,
Dora

PS- If you see my mom, say Hi to her for me and please fill her in. ;)

Peter Gabriel- I Grieve

It was only one hour ago

It was all so different then

Nothing yet has really sunk in

Looks like it always did

This flesh and bone

Its just the way that we are tied in

But there's no one home

We (I) grieve, for you

You leave, us (me)

So hard to move on 

Still loving what's gone

They say life carries on

Carries on and on and on