I am beautiful?
Well I know I am not ugly. But am I beautiful?
When I think of the word beautiful, I think of someone who's insides match their outsides.
Saturday, March 8, 2014
Smile in the dark
I have slowly settled into Cali. I'm getting more and more used to the thought that I am out here for good. I mean it is hard to swallow that when I am staying at my sister's house, but I think it will all get easier when I finally have my own place and I am doing my own thing.
Things right now consist of work, school, money, and well, money again. Lets do money x2. lol. But money then goes back to work and basically I just need to find a better job. I'm trying not to get overwhelmed with all the things I need to do and keep track of. Maybe I should make a list.
1.Find better job.
2. Talk to AT&T about my own plan. Or see if I can hop on someone else's.
3.Find an apartment.
Okay, so the list isn't that bad. At least #2 is super doable. Just #1 and #3 require more thought. And time. And money. Sigh.
Overall though, I think I am ok. Counseling is kind of helping. I'm not sure how I feel about it yet. Next Thursday will be my third session.
My birthday is next Friday. I am...apathetic? Just excited to eat sushi and drink I guess.
Jay is coming down from San Fran to visit me. I hope things dont get complicated with Dallas because of it...I dont think it should.
Anywho, yesterday was mom's bday. I missed her, but for the most part I wasn't really thinking about her. It makes me sad to say that, but it is the truth. I guess its how we cope.
Well I am going to continue taking it a day at a time and striving to continue smiling in the dark.
Things right now consist of work, school, money, and well, money again. Lets do money x2. lol. But money then goes back to work and basically I just need to find a better job. I'm trying not to get overwhelmed with all the things I need to do and keep track of. Maybe I should make a list.
1.Find better job.
2. Talk to AT&T about my own plan. Or see if I can hop on someone else's.
3.Find an apartment.
Okay, so the list isn't that bad. At least #2 is super doable. Just #1 and #3 require more thought. And time. And money. Sigh.
Overall though, I think I am ok. Counseling is kind of helping. I'm not sure how I feel about it yet. Next Thursday will be my third session.
My birthday is next Friday. I am...apathetic? Just excited to eat sushi and drink I guess.
Jay is coming down from San Fran to visit me. I hope things dont get complicated with Dallas because of it...I dont think it should.
Anywho, yesterday was mom's bday. I missed her, but for the most part I wasn't really thinking about her. It makes me sad to say that, but it is the truth. I guess its how we cope.
Well I am going to continue taking it a day at a time and striving to continue smiling in the dark.
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