As I reflect over the past year many things become apparent.
I could not have imagined that I would be where I am now.
The divorce...Juan...life close to family and friends...it all went differently than I had planned for.
The divorce went through in November. I had planned for it to be going through around now.
I planned on being single and learning what it meant to be me.
I had planned on being there for my sister more and taking up all of Nina's weekend time. I feel like I was severely lacking in those areas, especially for the latter part of the year.
As I reflect, many feelings emerge. I am more aware of the world and myself now than I was this time last year.
Sam is a thing of the past. Someone I used to know. But did he ever know me?
Did I ever know me?
Sometimes I think of my life up until last year and wonder to myself, "Was I happier then?" But as I ponder, I'm not sure that is really the right question I should be asking. I was just different. And on top of that I think my happiness has actually increased.
I am excited for this upcoming year and what it means to be alive.
TJ, San Fran, Guatemala, here I come.
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